I am so looking forward to 2010.
It's odd because 2009 had many a milestone in it: Graduating college, moving back home, working for a living, not being a student, ect,ect... But I can truly say that it was the worst year of my 22 year old existence. Not only for the bad luck that seemed to follow me everywhere but for the truths I learned about humanity in general. Truths and realizations that will never reverse themselves and will never change no matter how old I get.
I loved and I lost. I learned that no matter how much you care for a person, that doesn't meant that you should be with them. I learned that people are people and will do horrible and shitty things to you. Just like you do horrible and shitty things to them. We're all hypocrites. We're all lovers. We all make mistakes. It's about knowing when to forgive, when to forget and when to move the fuck on. I learned that falling asleep sober at 9:30 in the evening and waking up at 9 in the morning is much more enjoyable than being wasted till 4 in the morning and having to wake up in 3 hours. I learned that it is not wise to eat Taco Bell, McDonalds, or Wendy's at 3 in the morning after drinking JUST because it's by your house and they're open. C'mon fatty fatterton.
I am now a runner. I am also the skinniest I have ever been. I feel good but I also know that there is a long road ahead of me if I want to be the movie star I dream of...
(After I wrote all this, I can't help but feel that I learned such life lessons that it might be a positive thing!)
I know it's silly but I feel really, REALLY positively for 2010. And what a better way to start off the New Year than with a positive attitude???
So I'd like to take this time to apologize to all those that I offended in the year of 2009. To also thank all of you that brought such positivity and love into my life at such happy and also horrible times!
I bought a DREAM BOARD yesterday. A DREAM BOARD is basically a cork board, some index cards and tacks. I will write my dreams/goals on the cards no matter how big or small the dream may be and stick them up there. The object is to achieve these goals but to also continue adding more goals to the board so it is never empty and I am never done achieving!
2010:
Care wayyyy less of what people think of me
Love
Go on 15 dates, AT LEAST!
Move to NYC
Meet new people
Master the guitar
Become more socially graceful
Have more fun and take bolder risks with my style
Learn to live completely on my own
Knit a scarf
Go ice skating at Rockefeller
Make love with no inhibitions
Audition
Be happy
I love you all. Thank you.
BUT TO ANY BITCHES WEARING MY LEOPARD PRINT DRESS FROM RODARTE FOR TARGET ON NYE, I WILL RIP YOUR HAIR OUT!
<3
